A Relationship with God

I'm in a bad mood to be bloggin'. I just had a fight with Foy. What's bad is that if you asked me I really couldn't tell you exactly what is was about. Not because I don't want you to know but because I just don't know myself. Sad.

Well, alot has happened since my last blog. I had a visit from my MIL and I visited Yellowstone. I booked a plane ticket for my brother who is flying solo at 11 to come and see me on July 15th for 3 weeks. I'm really excited about it. Just thinking about it puts me in a better mood. He's a good kid who my mom is probably messin' him all up but I guess I got out of there with my sanity and most of my morals intact so hopefully he'll managed to keep grounded in the tornado my mom calls life.

I know you wouldn't believe it to read it but I do have some religious ( I hate using that word because in some ways it has bad connotations) beliefs that I try to adhere to in my own little ways. I believe that God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost are all one. I believe in speaking in tongues. I believe that it can happen and does happen for real. I believe in studying the King James Version (KJV) of the bible. I don't need my bible dumbed down for me or interpreted for me. I think you can be religious and have a relationship with God without attending church. I do think church is good for your soul though. It's good to spend some time mediating and thinking on God and his gifts. You should find a day each week if you don't attend church on Sunday. I see alot of hypocrisy when I attend church so it's left a bad taste in mouth. Made me bitter I guess you could say. It's made it hard for me to find and attend a church. Another thing that makes it difficult is that I have the beliefs of a Pentecostal without the beliefs that I'm going to hell if I wear pants or put makeup on or cut my hair. I agree with most of what they say and preach other than that. I love their singing. It's so joyful and loud. Raise your voices to heaven and be heard. Rejoice. Worship him loudly with your music. Move. Feel the joy in your clapping and your body moving. Your relationship with God should be one of joy I believe. Be happy in your love and your worship. I don't mourn my religion as the Catholics are famous for. There is a time and a place for reverence and a time and a place for joy. I believe in doing all. I think you should pray to yourself. I hate when the minister at church prays into the microphone when it's time for prayer. Prayer is personal and private. It's a conversation with you and God. I don't need or want to hear it. I think you should talk to God like a friend or like a father. I mean after all isn't he your father? I hate when they moan and say oh, lord. Talk to him ..tell him all about..he will hear your faintest cry..he will answer by and by..keep a little prayer wheel turning...

Sorry the words to a song came back to me but it says perfectly what I was trying to say. There are two sermons that stick out to me. One was that God is the father of the fatherless. Now I am nor ever have been fatherless but that sermon spoke to me because it said just talk to God. You don't have use fancy words or moan or do it where everyone can hear. Just say a prayer. Talk to him like he was your best friend or your Dad. The second sermon that stuck with me was a taped sermon that my Grandma use to listen to and had for years. It's a woman preacher. She says much along the same lines as the first sermon. Something about the fruit of your lips. She says the words don't even have to come out just move your lips and say your prayer. God hears you. And he answers prayers.

Well, as always, this wasn't what I intended to write my blog about but it was on the top of my mind because I did attend church today. No, seriously, I did.